I feel sad this afternoon. While I'm battling with myself that I'm only 6w pregnant, at the same time I keep asking myself just how long I will be pregnant? Will this really be a December baby? Am I going to be able to stay pregnant long enough to make this a 'viable' pregnancy and give my baby a good chance of survival if I were to go into labour earlier then Dec. 16th?
I stupidly signed up for some classes this fall. I figured I should be ok right? I drive there, walk 5 mins to class then sit on my arse for 3 hrs. Now I'm wondering will I even make it through the classes or will I go into labour early and fail them and have to take them again??
Just one of those days I guess. I wish Owen was home, I'd like to talk to him and get a hug of re-assurance that everything is going to go ok this time around. I'm just so scared. We talked a bit last night and have pretty much decided that if this pregnancy fails, we won't be TTC again, this is it. I just don't think I could handle a 2nd loss.
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