Last year after I 'publicly' announced that I was pregnant I asked a friend if I could buy her Graco Safeseat from her when she was done with it. I was due in April and I figured May-ish she would be done with it and I'd switch my baby from the Peg to the Graco. She said sure and then I lost the baby, but later told her I still wanted to buy her carseat. Well two weeks ago at her oldest girl's birthday party I brought it home. It seems unreal that she's done with it already and that in an alternate universe I should have a baby to put in it.
I am still oddly excited to have the carseat though. I did get a bit nervous putting it into the backseat of our Ford Escape though. At first it did not look like it would fit, but the driver seat was adjusted for Owen's height and it "just" fit with no room to spare. If worse came to worse I would have just moved Natasha behind the driver and put her sibling behind the passenger seat since I'm shorter.
I brought it home, washed the fabric just because it made me feel productive (ha) and did a little searching on Etsy for some carseat strap covers. I think my friend had some but mis-placed them or switched them over to another seat? Anyway, as luck would have it I found some made of the exact same fabric as the carseat, how crazy is that? The only down side is that the lining is pink chinelle, which is noticeable through the white fabric, so if we have a boy, I plan to seam rip the pink out and replace it with a different colour.
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Today I am 10 weeks pregnant. :0) I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and while at the last one she said we'd probably hear the heartbeat, I'm not getting my hopes up. I don't expect to hear it until around 13w, so I'm not going to be disappointed if she can't find it. I have my own doppler, which I've stowed in the bathroom sink, buried under other things, to avoid temptation of trying to find a heartbeat this early on. Plus, from experience I know that while hearing the heartbeat can be re-assuring, it's not always that little 'miracle' of hope. I heard it that night 3hrs before my baby died, it re-assured me enough that I did not feel a trip to the ER was necessary, a mistake I won't make again.
I also want to ask Dr. E about a different perscription then the one she suggested (Permicium/Peridium(sp?) a synthetic progesterone) at my last appointment. I looked into it as did my sister and she said that she remembers taking it with both her pregnancies BUT her doctor gave her a natural one, non synthetic as he felt it worked better. Apparently they had to have it fedex'd in from a fertility clinic in Montreal (she lives in Fredericton) and was a bit pricey, but not too bad as her blue cross covered most of the cost. She said in the end it was around $100 for 16w worth. Since calgary has a fertility clinic with one of the highest success rates for IVF in the country I doubt I'd need to get it Fedex to me. :P
In other news the last month is just killing me. I'm so exhausted and crabby all.the.time. It's putting a strain on things with my daughter that I do not like. I snap easily and I can tell that is effecting her. I nap when she naps and do my best to not lose my patience, but my exhaustion and irritability are getting the best of me. :0( I remember feeling this way during my pregnancy with her, but not so much my pregnancy last year. I'm just hoping that like my first pregnancy, it will all go away at the 12-13w mark. I know I'm older (35 this yr!) but it can't really be that much harder on my body can it??? oiy.
And while I'm on this whole whoa is me train ride, let's talk about my stomach. It started to pop around 7w and then just suddenly stopped at 9w. What I have now is not the nice round hard belly I had with Tash or last fall, but a muffin top over my pants. It's all rolly poly floppy and in my stress, exhaustion, depression over the last couple of weeks it makes me sad. I do not look pregnant, I just look like I put on a few pounds. My sister informed me today when I complained about it in frustration that it's because my stomach muscles did not fully tighten after my pregnancy last fall (is this how Mrs. Dugen's stomach gets since she waits for such a short time between each of her pregnancies?) or get a chance to full recover so now I get this 'muffin' top.
Now normally something like this would not bother me in the least, however, the past week I've been stressed/anxious/sad so seeing my floppy belly has just added to it. I mentioned it to Owen last night and he rubbed it and said to give it time it would 'harden', and while I know it will, right now I just lack the patience.
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