First of all, I'm starting to feel like a real tool. For the 2nd doctor's appointment in a row, I've thought it was on a different day and have missed it. The first time, I was at home and she called me an hour after I was suppose to be there and they still squeezed me in that morning. The next time was yesterday. I was out that morning so I'm not sure if they called earlier again to check on me, but they called at 4.30pm to let me know I missed it. sigh I re-scheduled it for next week on TUESDAY. I have no clue why I keep thinking my appointments are on Wednesdays, when really they are Tuesdays, but I always have the time right. sigh. I'm going to be so embarrassed when I see Dr. E on Tuesday next week. I'm also wondering if they are going to charge me the $50 fee. It's if you do not cancel 48hrs in advance, but I wonder if it applies to forgetting your appointment as well?
My u/s on the 17th went well. In the end, we decided that Owen would stay home. It was at 7.45am, which is not too early, is a bit too early for Natasha. She is super crabby when you wake her up in the mornings. So waking her up, getting her fed, dressed and out the door on time would have been a circus. Instead he stayed home, they both slept in and I got up at 6am to drink my water and get there on time.
I had a nice tech (sometimes it's hit or miss) and she did not ask (the first one in the 5 u/s's I've had) how many kids I had and what pregnancy this was. I hate hate that question. It took her about an hour to get all the images and measurements. Then I had to empty my bladder in an attempt to get baby to move, so she could get the final one. Jellybean was cooperative and rolled over for her.
Just when I thought I was done, she left, then came back told me (even though the regular u/s showed it fine)the doctor wanted a trans-vaginal. Then proceeds to scare me when she comes back and says "oh you can't leave, the doctor wants to talk to you." AFTER she told me everything was fine.
So I wait in this separate room for the doctor, who thankfully did not make me wait. She then told me the same thing, that my cervix looked fine and proceeded to tell me she did not think I have any issues with it and that my 'loss' last fall was probably a 'fluke'. However, we'd check it out again at 21w with another u/s.
Now, while I should be happy she is telling me my cervix is fine, this does not ease my mind at all and really upsets me that she is now disproving 2 doctors (who actually examined me and were in the hospital at the time)opinions. I get that she can give an opinion, but the way she told me, with such finality, like I was over-reacting. I'm probably not explaining it right, but the combination of the look she gave me and how she worded things...If I can remember my doctor appointment next week I'll talk to Dr. E about it.
The other nagging thing is, IF my cervix is fine, then what can I possibly grasp onto for why I went into pre-term labour last yr at 16w2d? I mentioned the 2-3 key things that happened to the doctor and she told me it could be explained in any number of ways, infection was one of them. sigh.
I also think I'm ready for the pathology report. If it was not a weakened cervix, maybe there was something wrong with the baby? But if that was the case, I'm sure Dr. E has looked at it right? And then if it says baby was fine, I'm back to square one, not having the answers.
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