Still bleeding...

Last night I had a bit of a scare. I put Tash to bed and when I peed I was bleeding bright red. I can be calm about brown but when it turns bright red I get super concerned. I kept re-assuring myself as I laid in bed that I had heard a very strong heartbeat that morning and everything MUST be ok. I laid there for about an hour going over in my head what could cause it - all the lifting I do of Natasha (in and out of the crib, up and down stairs bc she won't come down them and is super slow going up), all the walking I did in Paris etc.

This morning it's brown again so I feel a bit better. I've decided that I better rest rest rest more and do a lot less carrying of Tash. To calm my nerves though, I ordered a Hi Bebe Doppler this morning. A friend has one, but I think it's in full rotation of use right now and I'd rather have my own for my entire pg and not worry about returning it after a few days or a week or what not.

It's just really for my own peace of mind. Since we are done with 2 kids, I'll sell it afterward. I should be able to find someone that would like it after I'm done with it. I wanted to buy it actually before I went to Paris, again for peace of mind while I was in another country but it was out of stock then.