13%

I did a little googling last night on miscarriage. I learned that because I've mis-carried once, my chances increase 13% that I'll mis-carry again. I also learned that 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage, some estimate it's as high as 1 in 3. The numbers seem so small, until it happens to you, and then they suddenly seem huge. When I was researching about Incompetent Cervix, I read that 25% of all women experience IC. And I thought to myself, that seems so small comparatively speaking, I had never heard of it before. Then I started researching it more and there seemed to be so many women that had IC. Many of whom had 2 and 3 miscarriages before the Dr. learned that was the problem. A lot of women like me had no indicators that they would have IC bc they had a successful first pregnancy. I've been told that my first pregnancy is probably what weakened my cervix.

I have my follow up doctor appointment on Tuesday at 11:15. I'm not overly excited about it. I thought I would be. I'd be more excited about it if she could check my cervix and tell me if it's weakened instead of having to get pregnant first to find out if that was indeed the cause. Owen is anxious. He's hoping all is ok and she gives the green light to TTC again. I have not decided how I feel yet. Part of me does want to TTC again right away, the other part of me..not so much. He told me the other night, which I have to say was really sweet, that next time he would take extra extra care of me. :0)

I've been really emotional this week, crying a ton. I was blaming PMS, but no period yet. I also have noticed some 'signs' that I might be Ovulating/Fertile. My luck, it will show up Tuesday morning bc I have the Dr's apt.