Why does the thought that in about 3 weeks we'll be actively TTC make me a little queasy?? I'm excited to add to our family, but at the same time, I'm nervous/scared/anxious....Part of me is sad that those first few weeks/months with 2nd babe will not be the same as they were with Tash. There were just so many little moments that I enjoyed with Tash and I that I know I won't be able to experience with 2nd babe.
Also, the idea of having 2 kids, that scares me. I know I'll adjust and it will be fine, just the first few months I think are going to be crazy. Owen is all laid back about the whole thing, but I can't help to feel a bit nervous/anxious.
And so as to not to get ahead of myself, when I'm not worrying about what it will be like to have 2 kids under foot, I'm worrying about how my pregnancy will go the 2nd time around. I had a relatively easy pregnancy the first time, what if the 2nd time is difficult? I think I'm surrounded by way too many pregnant women (5 in my playgroup and the number is slowly climbing) and then 2 in my other playgroup and numerous women I know through a msg board I frequent.
I do want 2 kids, heck I've even thought about having 3, I think it's just nerves now that we (read me) are finally ready to start that journey again.
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