I wonder when..

I'm going to stop feeling bitter?

I've decided

to step away from the blog for a while. I got really too obsessive with testing and the like this past cycle and analyzing everything. So I'm going to take a break for now.

Funny Faces

I asked Natasha to smile for me the other day when I had my camera, surprisingly she did.

Well..

on to the next cycle. sigh.

Happy Anniversary to me..

Well my hopes for a nice BFP for my 3rd yr anniversary were dashed. I got a BFN. I think ovusoft is actually right and my period will show up on Friday. I hope it does, the sooner it does the sooner it's over and we can start TTC again. I'm bit sad. I know it was only the first month trying again since the loss, but I was so hoping.

well...

that was unexpected. I took a pg test this morning bc my chart looked soo good and I thought I was 10DPO. I got a BFP last time at 10DPO so I thought what the heck? Anywho, it came back a BFN and now of course I'm feeling a little crampy. sigh

I'm on Cycle Day 31 and normally I would start my period on CD 32, but it could be a bit off bc of the loss and D&C. My chart is forecasting my period to start on Friday CD36, so if that's the case then I could still get a BFP on Wed IF DGT does not show.

My chart just looks so great and we had so much sex. I've been really fatigue'd this past week too and of course really bitchy. heh More waiting...

Buttons, Buttons and more Buttons

Today I was trying to finish up a scrapbook page from Tash's album. To occupy her so I could finish the page I let her play with my buttons. She proceeded to dump all 4 containers into a mason jar and then wanted to dump all of them back into 1 container. Of course some of the buttons fell out and some on the floor. She looks at me, then at the floor and says just as plain as day "Awee Crappy!". I started laughing and she looked at me like "What mommy?"

well...

It's been an interesting cycle, super low temps, no real spike in my temps and no certainty that I actually ovulated. I've been sick for a week, I've been taking my temp anywhere from 5.30am to 8am depending on when my cough/stuffy nose/head cold has woke me up. I doubt I've had one night where I was not awake off and on from the moment I finally fell asleep until I woke up completely in the morning. I'd say this cycle is a bust. It's not over yet, but I suspect I'm going to see my period soon. sigh.

un oh

While talking diaper bags with Morgan today, more specifically about the new fall Ju Ju patterns I did a little searching and found that the Between IS available in Purple Paisley. So if it's available there, then there must be a store/cdn retailer online that has it..right? Surprises me that the pattern does not show up on the Ju Ju Between pattern preview on the Ju Ju site.



I did a double and triple check the site lists it as a Between, so it's out there..I just need to find it. heh Unless they put out some new spring patterns. I'm going to wait on it until I'm actually pg then I'll start with the pleas to my husband.

Random Photos

Not much new going on in our house. Her vocabulary is growing by leaps and bounds and she's easing us into the terrible twos in grand style. :p Yesterday for the first time she actually answered us with "Yeah!" instead of No when I asked her if she wanted a drink. She'd signed "drink" and out of habit I just said "Do you want a drink and started to walk away to get one when she exuberantly said Yeah! The only other word she says with such enthusiasm is when we are leaving or one of us is going out without her we get a very loud and excited BYE!!!

A few recent photos that have been added to my favourite folder;

Yay!

for F'd up temps this cycle! I had quite a bit of wine last night. I figured if they were no where normal there was no issue in making them more wonky by drinking the New year in.